Why is it so hard to think straight when you're sick? It's almost as if the virus swims around in your brain altering your thought processes. It's frustrating to say the least.
I believe it has come about due to stress. My brain has been going into overdrive. I've been so lost in thought over the past week that I haven't eaten, or slept, or done anything useful with my time.
To be honest, this the THE FIRST time I've ever experienced something so severe. Everytime I think about it, my stomach does summersaults. I get so many butterflies that they're practically bursting out of me.
I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I don't want to think about it anymore, it's too soon....everything is happeneing too fast, I can't keep up. I feel light headed and my keyboard is getting wet with my tears. Oh, would you look at that, there's an eyelash on my fingerpad. It's wet.
Maybe I should die? At least then I wouldn't have to think, or talk to anyone, or let them talk to me. It would be a lot easier. Someone shoot me? Please?
I sound like an emo. If ever your life becomes troubled, just kill yourself. Right now, it doesn't seem like a bad idea. But of course, I wouldn't do it. It's up to God to decide when he wants you to die, isn't it? Yeah. Or perhaps I could conveniently walk infront of a bus...and blame it on the tear that was blurring my vision.
I'm supposed to be in a good mood. It's my birthday next week. I'm going to be 20..and I don't even care. I'm not looking forward to it cause I'm just getting older, and closer to my death. Ha! There I go again, talking about death. I told you I was pessimistic.
My nose keeps running and my eyes keep watering and I'm sweating loads. It's ick. I hate being sick. Stupid damn viruses, why can't you go and infect someone else? HUH?!
Oh. I feel drowsy. Head is spinning. I should probably locate my bed.
I believe it has come about due to stress. My brain has been going into overdrive. I've been so lost in thought over the past week that I haven't eaten, or slept, or done anything useful with my time.
To be honest, this the THE FIRST time I've ever experienced something so severe. Everytime I think about it, my stomach does summersaults. I get so many butterflies that they're practically bursting out of me.
I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. I don't want to think about it anymore, it's too soon....everything is happeneing too fast, I can't keep up. I feel light headed and my keyboard is getting wet with my tears. Oh, would you look at that, there's an eyelash on my fingerpad. It's wet.
Maybe I should die? At least then I wouldn't have to think, or talk to anyone, or let them talk to me. It would be a lot easier. Someone shoot me? Please?
I sound like an emo. If ever your life becomes troubled, just kill yourself. Right now, it doesn't seem like a bad idea. But of course, I wouldn't do it. It's up to God to decide when he wants you to die, isn't it? Yeah. Or perhaps I could conveniently walk infront of a bus...and blame it on the tear that was blurring my vision.
I'm supposed to be in a good mood. It's my birthday next week. I'm going to be 20..and I don't even care. I'm not looking forward to it cause I'm just getting older, and closer to my death. Ha! There I go again, talking about death. I told you I was pessimistic.
My nose keeps running and my eyes keep watering and I'm sweating loads. It's ick. I hate being sick. Stupid damn viruses, why can't you go and infect someone else? HUH?!
Oh. I feel drowsy. Head is spinning. I should probably locate my bed.
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