Why must it be so difficult to maintain self-control?
Why the fuck am I not determined enough to pursue this? I've got no other option, I'm not wanted and I can't keep returning to cause more chaos. It's not fair on them. Since WHEN was it so hard to move on and forget about the past? To forget about the people that dominate your past?
Why am I even bothering? My heart is to cold..and inexperienced at being a good heart to deal with such complications. It can't take all this fluttering, it might go into cardiac arrest soon. Then I might die, so I won't have to deal with it!!
I'm such a wimp, always looking for the easy way out. Cause it's EASY and I'm LAZY. Makes perfect sense in my head.
I'm going to edit this some more soon, I just need to get into my BED.
Why the fuck am I not determined enough to pursue this? I've got no other option, I'm not wanted and I can't keep returning to cause more chaos. It's not fair on them. Since WHEN was it so hard to move on and forget about the past? To forget about the people that dominate your past?
Why am I even bothering? My heart is to cold..and inexperienced at being a good heart to deal with such complications. It can't take all this fluttering, it might go into cardiac arrest soon. Then I might die, so I won't have to deal with it!!
I'm such a wimp, always looking for the easy way out. Cause it's EASY and I'm LAZY. Makes perfect sense in my head.
I'm going to edit this some more soon, I just need to get into my BED.
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